Fresh blue eyes, big as saucers.
4 months today.
I’m getting my body back! Shrinking out of clothes. Thankful for the newness. I really feel like I get a new body with every baby. It feels so fresh and miraculous to step out of the new baby fog. The mist thins gradually– and then, “Oh! I recognize you!” Only, it seems better, more miraculous. Stronger.
Thank you body. Thank you for my babies. Thank you for recovery– for discovery.
Could anything be cuter?
It makes me so sad when people are negative about motherhood. It is so beautiful. As the my bagger helped me out to the car yesterday at the grocery store she kept saying, in her Vietnamese accent, “Oh, why do you have 4 kids. You must be so tired all the time. Clean up this mess, clean up that mess. No sleep.” I just smiled, kissed the baby I was wearing and said, “But they’re so fun. They are so good…”
Sure, I’m often tired. Sometimes I’m at my wit’s end with a screaming 2 1/2 year old who wants Superman fruit snacks for breakfast. But, when that 2 1/2 year old looks at my wedding picture he thinks I’m a fairy. Now, doesn’t that make it worth it? Someone thinks I have magical powers!
The joys of this day:
-watching interpretive dance in my very own living room
-mud pies and muddy toes
-4 sets of big blue eyes
-nursing a baby
-big sister attempting to change a diaper
-crazy curly hair
-soft baby breath and skin against my cheek
-a bike ride in the cool breeze
There are ideas swimming around in my head that probably won’t ever get to come out as art. There are a lot of clothes in my closet to don’t fit.
But, look at that little human up there. There really is nothing better than being his.
I love both pictures - thanks for sharing.
That’s an awesome photo! Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I was just talking to a friend today who had a baby more than a year ago and she was reassuring me that once the baby is born, my body will come back to normal, slowly; though it may seem to me now that it can’t be possible! I don’t worry much about how I will look after, but surely hope my RSI will get better.
Comment by Maya Madhavan — 7/5/2007 @ 3:46 pm
I was going to tell you on Sunday how fabulous you look! The dress you wore looked terrific.
He’s such a cutie! I enjoyed holding him yesterday!
Comment by Jill — 7/5/2007 @ 10:51 pm
wow jess he is really cute. i love how his foot is out of focus. i imagine it kicking back and forth, never quite stopping. i am jelouse that your body comes back seemingly effortlessly. mine is coming back but it seems to be so slow and with lots of effort. i miss you
Comment by april — 7/6/2007 @ 1:02 am
I love you SO MUCH!
I miss you ALL so much!
No one can believe he is so big all ready. We loved the jumping bean movie.
MOM
Comment by mom hone — 7/10/2007 @ 9:30 am
He looks wonderful!
Comment by Mirre — 7/10/2007 @ 4:58 pm